Why I read it: I picked up a
review copy at NetGalley.
What it’s about: (from Goodreads):
Anna remembers a time before boys,
when she was little and everything made sense. When she and her mom were a
family, just the two of them against the world. But now her mom is gone most of
the time, chasing the next marriage, bringing home the next stepfather. Anna is
left on her own—until she discovers that she can make boys her family. From
Desmond to Joey, Todd to Sam, Anna learns that if you give boys what they want,
you can get what you need. But the price is high—the other kids make fun of
her; the girls call her a slut. Anna's new friend, Toy, seems to
have found a way around the loneliness, but Toy has her own secrets that
even Anna can't know.
Then comes Sam. When Anna actually meets a boy who is more than just
useful, whose family eats dinner together, laughs, and tells stories, the truth
about love becomes clear. And she finally learns how it feels to have something
to lose—and something to offer. Real, shocking, uplifting, and stunningly
lyrical, Uses for
Boys is a story of breaking down and growing up.
Warning: There is a sexual assault in the story – it isn’t violent
but if you have triggers, beware.
What worked for me (and what didn’t): I would categorise this as YA rather than
romance, although there is a romantic thread near the end and there is a
hopeful ending, the book is more about Anna’s journey, so don’t expect the
traditional romance arc. (For example,
the “hero”, Sam, doesn’t show up until around the 2/3 mark of the book.) The story is told from Anna’s first person
POV and I wasn’t quite sure how reliable she was as narrator – at least in
relation to her relationship with her mother. Perhaps it is that I don’t want
to belief that her mother could be that self-absorbed and selfish. Perhaps it is that there is some
inconsistency with how Anna’s mother acts toward the end of the book and what
Anna tells the reader about her at the start.
By the time Anna is 13, she is so
very lonely, that when a boy on the bus pays attention to her and gropes her
breast (in front of his friends, the douchebag) she not only passively accepts
it, she spins straw into gold and tells herself a story about him, of how it
will be for them. There is no them of
course and Anna loses her only school friend and her reputation as a result,
but she does discover that boys can make her feel good, even if only for a
while. And that’s better than nothing.
Anna isn’t actually as “slutty”
as I expected she would be from what I had heard about the book before
reading. There were a couple of one-off
incidents in the book, must mostly Anna is in a relationship with her sexual
partners and there weren’t that many
of them. While I felt Anna was far too
young and vulnerable to be having sex, I didn’t actually feel that Joey or Josh
or Sam really took advantage of her. I
think Joey was lonely too and he seemed to give Anna a lot of genuine affection and attention
(perhaps this is Anna being an unreliable narrator but that’s what was on the
page). Josh and Anna’s relationship took
a fairly standard teenage course, except that for a time they share an
apartment. Sam wants far more from Anna
than just to get his rocks off but he’s a boy too and not a saint so, while it
takes a bit longer, their relationship is sexual as well. But none of these boys were merely “users”. My mental picture of the boys Anna has sex
with being all like the boy on the bus or like Todd wasn’t accurate.
As much as I was gutted for Anna
at the beginning of the story; how lonely she was - how no-one was taking care
of this child! - but I found myself
wanting her to fight back, to fight for herself more by the time she hit 16 and
was supporting herself physically. I wanted her to start supporting herself
emotionally too. There is a part of the book where Anna is complaining about
Josh (her newly-ex-boyfriend) not fighting for anything and it was beautiful
irony because Anna doesn’t either really.
I wasn’t convinced that by the
end of the book Anna was in charge of her own destiny, that she was making
choices to please herself from a place of strength. I still felt she was seeking approval from
Sam and his family and that was the major driver in her actions.
What else? I’m not a fan of
ambiguity in general. There are some
writers who can create a complete word picture in a few short sentences, who
can draw a detailed character picture with spare strokes of the pen. Anna (and many other characters in the book)
felt so spare as to have parts of
themselves missing. There was not enough
for me to fill in the gaps and intuit what was not there and I was left somewhat
frustrated at the things I felt I was supposed to know but didn’t.
Here is what I said at the end of
my audiobook review for AudioGals “I wanted more detail and a more hopeful
ending – in the end the spare style frustrated me more than charmed. But, don’t be fooled into thinking this is a
story about a slutty girl who deserves what’s happening to her and who merely
makes bad choice after bad choice. It’s
a story about a lonely fragile girl who is so emotionally abandoned, she
imprints (over and again) on the first person who shows her some affection –
and about boys who should be taught to respect women and girls better than they
do.”
Grade: C
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